Jacki's Page

As you can tell by my picture, I am a mom! God has richly blessed me with three very different and wonderfully talented children.
Most of all I truely desire for what is best for them. I pray earnestly for help with them for I am not bored.
My journey, started like most of you a very long time ago, when God put where He wanted me to be.
This is hard to share but here it goes: my wonderful human Christian mom died(8/03) at home with Hospice, I was her primary caretaker for years-Mothers are special no matter how human they are!
Then the hurricanes of 04-left us with house damages that did not total get repaired until summer 07.
Married in 87, it was a troubled marriage to say the least. He was a control freak, abusive, angry, alcoholic, materialist,(I married both my mother and father) and I loved him very much. I worked very hard for my marriage for example: read and worked hard on Boundries, several different counselors including one that specialized in Alcholics, quit all my outside volunteering(church, little league, PTA).
One day in Feb.06, after much prayer and consideration-I gave up and decided to let him go. I started saving money and planned for a divorce. Ten days after, I informed him of the upcoming divorce-my husband made his own statement by taking his own life.
It was a beautiful spring day, March the 8th , just before spring break for the children. Leaving me and my three children to deal with the consequences of his actions. This tragedy was a public event in that my families knew, church, little league baseball ,PTA, and neighbors.
Our marriage counselor from New Life, took me on as a grieving widow-thank the Lord! Let me just say, what great things I have learned and what a faithful Father we serve!
Not done yet, so then I lost my beloved aunt, my mother's oldest sister-and it was almost like losing my mother again(3/06-two weeks after my husband). By June of 06', my father was diagnosed with terminal cancer thus he died in 8/06. So I have been grieving for almost three solid years. In the book of Matthew is says in the beattitudes..blessed are those who morn...
Just before summer of 08, I awoke to a new day and asked myself WOW! how did I get here- thanks for taking the time to read my short version of my story. I am hopeful for this journey especially to see God's hands. Your sister in Christ-Jacki