I have been going to WW and I do good for a few weeks and then I get so resistant. I know that I do much better with the structure but I seem to fight it. I think it goes back to being so controlled as a child by my abuser and my mom. Some how I am…
Hello Kathie, it is so good to hear from you. I'm so glad that you were able to take a cruise and finally have some peace of mind. I'm glad that your husband's surgery went well. I am happy that Matt is doing better also. What a great blessing.
Well, as for me....my husbands job ends on November 30th. This new company that is taking over...has the new contract...is not going to hire my husband. So, here we go again...Mike out of work...and at the holiday time. Another ruined Christmas. Mikes heart is still out of rhythm. His doctor won't put it back into rhythm because Mike doesn't have insurance. I was tempted to put him on my insurance...but with him out of work and only my paycheck coming in...can I afford that at keep the bills paid at home up? This is a mind battle that is going on inside of me.
Thank you Kathie, I appreciate your support. I know you have been through the mill of worry about your son. Yes, I have to admit...I do worry. Sometimes I feel that I am so over this. I think I can't take another day of this. Thank the Lord I didn't listen to my husband and move to a more expensive home. I kept saying no this is not the time to move. I am glad I stood my ground in this. Yes, you are right connection is the answer. I would like to dig a hole and hide, but I know I need connection.
At 5:00am on September 25, 2009, Donna Toole said…
Hello Kathie, it is wonderful to hear from you. We are all concerned because you are our sister in Christ. We would like to pray for you, Matt and your family. I am so glad that Matt is in a place that can help him. That is wonderful news that your daughter is going to have a baby. How very exciting!! Please keep coming here so we can hear fo the prognosis for your son. We love you sister. Donna
Kathie, I will keep Matt in my prayers. I am also going to pray for you for comfort and strength to face each day that you are worried. My heart goes out to you my friend.
I am so glad that you will be ok. I'm sorry that you have a severe alergic reaction to it. I hope you will feel better. That is nice that your daughter will take you out. I hope you have a great day today!!
Hello Kathie, sorry I wasn't able to respond sooner, I've been away for 5 days trying to set up my home. Well, did you take the flowers to your moms grave? I know you wish you had a good mom. Unfortunately not all moms are good. Any one can have a child but not every one can be a mom. I hope your tick bite will be ok and you will not get lime disease. You are right...that is all you need.
Hello Kathie, I am glad that you came here to us. That is what this is all about, is to open up your feelings, your frustrations so we can pray for you and also to lift you up. I am sorry that you have been isolating yourself. I have done the same thing. You are not to blame for Matt. It is just something that happened. He is ill with Lupus, so you know that that is the real reason that he became ill with his heart. You had nothing to do with that. This is a fallen world that we live in, a world of sickness and sorrow. I will keep Matt in my prayers and I will also pray for you. Know that you are not alone. Please continue to come here and let us be there for you. We love you dear sister.
Hello Kathie, it is wonderful to hear from you. I am so sorry that you have been so sick. It is hard to be sick, take care of the family and have to work. Life is tough sometimes. Yes, it is so hard to live as two seperate families. Ever since I told my mother in law off she has treated my daughter with respect. Can you believe that she actually huged my daughter last night? My daughter thought she would faint she was so shocked. Yes, my mother in law has dimentia. I try my hardest to show her love and affection. She is a lonely old sick woman. I really do feel sorry for her. She is having a fit because she we are moving out. First she doesn't want us there and then she wants us to stay. But, I will be so happy just to have my own place again. God is so good, He found a way for us to find a place that didn't check our credit. God is awsome. How is your son doing these days? I hope all is well with you and your family. I hope you will get well soon. Love you sister, Donna
Hello Kathie, it has to be tough to deliver mail in that kind of weather. It is dreary here in Florida. It is cloudy and raining. It is in the 70's. I hope it improves for you. Hopefully you will get spring weather soon. I love spring. I have been sitting by a lake at a park waiting for my daughter to get off work and I watch the birds, ducks fly around. It is mating season and they are flying all over the place. It is such peace. My husband came into town with me and Michele yesterday. He didn't want to be with his mother all day. He stayed at the park most of the day. He said it was so peaceful, almost fell a sleep in the car.
Hi Kathie, yes, I don't think we are ever done when it comes to healing with what you have been through. It is like greaving comes and greaving goes. It doesn't ever end. All we can ever do is one day at a time. Pray that the Lord will stand beside us each and every day through our good days and our bad days. You know Kathie, you can forgive but you will never forget. The Lord doesn't expect you to forget. It is the way we are made. We are all here for you, please continue to open up on here. We need each other. Donna